YOUL'L NEVER KNOW

You'll never know
How much I loved you,
How much I cared.

You'll never know
About my pain,
About my broken heart.

You'll never know
How much I cried,
Just lying on my bed
And thinking of you . . .
kissing her.

NOBODY

It's gone
What's gone? My mind?
Soul? No, I'm fine
Not really
Deep inside, something is missing
The love and tender kissing
She walked out herself
Now all I do is talk to myself
in the mirror, with my reflection
My heart is dead
Soon it will make a resurrection
Once the wounds heal
And I'm loved for real
A type of love I can feel
But nobody loves me
Nobody cares
Nobody loves me
That nobody is me
I can't love myself because no one does
I'm all alone and no longer what I once was
But the only thing that keeps me alive
Is knowing that the next day, it might all change
For the best
And that "nobody" becomes somebody

I LEARN TO BE STRONG

Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.

TO WHATS YOU LEAVE ME

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is to know such pain, it's jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself, warm with sleep, against your solid back.

Nor hear your steady breathing. Or feel the beating of your heart.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons to yours, will never come to be.

And the mornings once so silent and hopeful, us gazing at the mountains and so gently awaiting forever - are now but small pieces of my past.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

your heart a tight fist of anger and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you. I cry for both of us, my love, because you will not.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is to know that I've lost my place on this earth. My station. My heart's home. That I will wander, forever a nomad. Alone and afraid. And in my troubled dreams watch you leave, again and again.

For the balance of my days.

FALLIN IN LOVE NEVER END

When I say I love you I do
But this with you will not do
I need someone I can lean on
Someone I can count on too

Yes you are there sometimes
For that I am grateful to you
But I need someone there full time
And that you can not do

You told me once you loved me
That I could believe in you
I was there when you needed someone
Where were you when I needed someone, too?

The time has come for me to let go
Never to expect you to care again
People may come and people may go
But my love will never end

LOVE

Love makes you cry
Love makes you sad
Loves gives you feelings you thought you never had
Love makes you happy
Love maked you mad
Love gives you joy that leaves you feeling glad
Love makes you excited
Love makes you new
Love gives you hope which is oh so true
Loves makes you kind
Loves makes you bold
Loves gives you thoughts that you will never get old
Love makes you stressful
Love makes you change
Love gives you a beautiful wedding to arrange
When it comes out, love gives you many things...
But at the end, what will love make you?

~_^POEMS MY SOUL^_~

Hari berganti hari
Siang malam ku selalu ingat kamu
Sejak melihatmu
Hidupku begitu bahagia

Entah mengapa bayangan wajahmu
Begitu membuat diriku tak berdaya
Setiap kutatap matamu
Jantungku berdetak sangat cepat

Apa ini cinta?
Atau hanya perasaan sesaat saja?
Entahlah...
Ku tak dapat menjawabnya
Biarlah ini semua berjalan apa adanya


Dimana arti sebuah kesetiaanmu
Janjimu yang pernah kau ucap dulu
Sungguh ku tak menyangka
Kau hianati diriku

Aku adalah orang yang benar-benar menyayangimu
Mencintaimu dengan sepenuh hatiku
Setelah kau tinggalkan ku sendiri
Yang bisa kulakukan hanyalah meratapinya

Tapi kini kusadar
Kau tak pantas untuk kau cintai
Kau begitu mengecewakanku
Begitu menyakitiku

Kan ku hapus semua kenangan kita


Raut wajahmu selalu terbayang
Suaramu selalu terngiang di telingaku
sentuhan tanganmu masih terasa
pelukanmu masih terasa hangat

Ku ingin selalu berada disisimu
ku mau ada saat kau terbangun
ku masih butuh belayan mesramu
ku tak mau kau pergi dariku

akankah dia dapat kumiliki kembali
akankah dia bisa kudapati lagi

Aku terjebak dalam lingkaran cinta
aku terjerembab dalam jurang asmara

tapi ku tak bisa berbuat apa-apa
ku hanya bisa terdiam dan membisu

aku memang seorang pecundang
aku memang gak punya keberanian
untuk berusaha mendapatkan kamu
untuk bisa hidup dengan kamu

tolong ajari aku...
tolong tuntun aku..
tolong bantu aku..
untuk bisa mendapatkan dirimu......


Tanpa senyumanmu bahagiaku tak'kan sempurna...
Tanpa kehadiranmu hidupku terasa hampa...
Disetiap mimpi-mimpiku hanya kau yang slalu kudamba...
Disetiap langkah hidupku hanya kau yang slalu ku kutunggu...

Kasihmu meringankan derita hidupku...
Cintamu meluluhkan hatiku yang telah lama membeku...
Perhatianmu mengubah jalan hidupku...
Setiap detik ku'kan selalu mencintaimu,tanpamu ku bukanlah siapa-siapa...

Tak'kan ada badai yang meruntuhkan cintaku padamu...
Tak'kan ada ombak besar yang mengoyahkan hatiku untukmu...
Tak'kan ada lagi malam yang sunyi tanpa dirimu...
Ku'kan slalu mencintaimu setiap detik hidupku hingga nafas terakhirku...

Walau seribu derita kujalani ku'kan slalu mencintaimu...
Walau seribu cercaan kuterima ku'takkan berpaling darimu...
kau'kan slalu ada dihatiku sampai maut menjemputku...
Oh kekasih hatiku,kaulah anugerah terindah didalam hidupku...

BOYS LIKE GIRLS ~TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE~

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one